Body Pain

Well I am writing after a long gap. Too much busy. Always trying my luck in new fields. I can't fix my focus on a single target. When I feel that I should stop this job here and try out something else. I am forcing myself to work hard. Frankly speaking its getting on my nerves.

I spend more than 8hrs in front of my PC. The pain has started to show its true color from the various parts of my body. I am losing my posture. I just try to keep myself fit by doing a set of 20 pushups. Just to make sure that my upper body muscles stay in shape.

I have disturbed my daily routine. Instead of having the breakfast in the morning, I have it in the afternoon and my lunch during the tea time. Don't ask me about my dinner, When the whole world sleeps I start my dinner.

It's more than 10 months, since I am having this severe body pain. My right elbow joint, my back and the left side of my neck, they all sing in a chorus the painful melody.

After so many months, I have learned to live with them. Now its like my body pain is a part of my body. It always makes me realize the thin line of difference between living with pain and living without pain.

If there is no pain, then there is no gain. Hope you all are living healthy and are as fit as a horse.

Science - "The Terror that ends a world"

There are about 110 different branches of science. All these disciplines affect our lives in some way or the other. These branches evolved or came into existence, when knowledge from different parts of the world came face to face and supported each others gained knowledge through years of experience, for a common cause that is to benefit the human race.

Science was born on the day when the early man rubbed two flint stones  to make fire. Life of a man was never the same after that. To make life comfortable he changed the entire world around him.

Science is a "Virtual God" on earth. You can only feel its existence in the gifts that he had offered to us. Science has taken us up the ladder of evolution and success, at a very fast pace.

Bad is always packaged as a free gift with good. After all we all are human beings and love the word "free" no matter what it is. I don't understand why such dangerous and life threatening experiments are conducted which can destroy the world a thousand times. If at all such experiments are conducted then only the good part should be revealed not the entire experiment, which provides a golden opportunity to the anti-social elements to destroy the world.

We know what the Hydrogen bombs have done to Hiroshima and Nagasaki. The Chernobyl nuclear disaster, the AIDS virus, the SAARC virus and many more. No one knows from where all these viruses comes in a Hi-Tech world like ours which is in its 21st century of scientific achievements.

There are more than a million problems that are byproducts of science. We don't have a solution to all these problems that scare us even in our dreams. On top of that the scientists are coming up with new innovative ideas to exponentially increase the number of problems. Now the latest innovative idea is "LHC". They don't have enough knowledge to find the secrets of sleep and human body then how are they going to find the secrets of universe of which we are a part of.

There are secrets that are beyond our imagination and thoughts, that questions our very own existence and faith. Our scientific world is just revolving on the basis of assumptions rather than facts.

There is still a major part of the world left in hunger and poverty. Instead of helping them we are wasting our resources in decoding secrets. It is feared that, the world will end, if a mini black hole is created, as a result of the failure of the experiment, the hole has the potential to gulp anything that comes near it.

Who knows what is stored for us tomorrow. The entire definition of science will change today to - "The Terror that ends a world".

My strange hobbies continued...

I have mentioned about my last two hobbies in my previous post. Now its time to tell you all about my first hobby, that is to observe people, to know more about them, to collect as much information as possible about them. That's why my friends call me a "Living Database". The good part is, I never reveal this information to anyone, just because I feel its not the right thing to do. Then what do I do with all this information, nothing. That's why I call it a hobby. We humans are quick learners and have a good grasping power. We easily remember things that we are interested in. This word "interest" plays a major role in our day to day life. Without this we won't do anything, no matter how important the work is.

Our memory is divided into three sections. Interesting, Uninteresting and Mechanical. Out of these, the first priority goes to mechanical, things that we do daily, like walking, talking, running or any other activities that are a part of our daily lives, including sex, are stored in this section of memory. We don't have to remember anything for performing these daily activities. It comes naturally to us, automatically. I really like this word "automatically".

The second priority goes to "interesting" things. We easily remember interesting things. We don't have to make a note of all the interesting things to remember. Neither we have to stress our brain hard to recollect these things. I hate this word "stress", the word itself gives me so much of stress.

Finally at last we have our favorite category "uninteresting". No body wants to remember things that is of no interest to us, no matter how important that thing is. Uninteresting category acts like a recycle bin. The choice is ours whether we have to retain it or delete it. Now don't tell me that, my blog is uninteresting. Okay fine, I know you all wouldn't say that.

Our hobbies falls in the middle of the mechanical and the interesting categories. Hobbies are activities that we do out of our own interest with no particular reason or motive behind it. Yes, I know my hobbies are strange.

My strange hobbies

Very often people ask me about my hobbies. I never had a proper answer for this. Maybe because, I myself didn't know about my hobbies. But today I have the answer, guess what? Okay, its strange but true, reading e-content. I just love to read e-books, web pages and any other thing in a computer. Its fun, a real fun.

If you are connected to the internet, then it makes your job even more easier. Many times, I don't feel like continuing with a content in a book, just because I don't get a continuity, certain points that I find difficult to digest. I am just curious to know more about that thing to maintain that momentum.

Thanks to the computer, now reading has become even more fun. You get stuck somewhere, just log on to any website or just make a search in "Google" and there you are with your answer. In this learning process, you even get to know even more about things that are related to your particular topic. Reading has never been so much pleasure. I have a computer with a 40GB hard disk. In that I have 12GB of e-contents. My friends laugh at me some times and call me a book worm and here I have to rectify them, call me an e-book worm.

Okay finally you people came to know about my third hobby. Now lets move towards my second hobby, absorbing within me a little bit of others characteristics. It can be good or bad, but most of the time good things. My second hobby makes me special in my peer group. They find me as an amalgamation of different personalities. Hae, I am not talking about a multiple personality disorder here. I am well aware about my switching personalities. Its always fair to have good and bad traits in you. Without good there is no bad and without bad there is no good. This is a law not by me but buy the nature, by the creator of everything. Knowingly or unknowingly we are following this law. This was the second law of nature . The first law says "Good always has an edge over the Bad". This law is self-explanatory, no need for an explanation here.

Now finally coming to my first hobby. Hae wait, I know you people are eager to know it. But if I write everything today, then what will I write tomorrow. Just have some pity on me. I am writing this post with my one eye open and the other one closed. My head is shifting its position like a pendulum. I feel its time to sleep.

Let's write a blog

Its 1:30 am here and I am writing this blog sitting inside my kitchen. I like to write at night when everyone sleeps. I usually write when I can't sleep because my main processor is always working. It never rests. I always come out with strange ideas which obviously don't work, its not that I come out with something that doesn't work. Its just that I don't get the right person to work with.

My ideas don't work just because there is no financial input, so there won't be any output. If I try to put some time it making it work, then there wouldn't be any output in my academics, if there is no output in academics then its of no use staying in this country. I know almost all the different ways by which I can earn a living, but out of it even if a single thing has to work, then I'll have to fill it with some genuine content. I sat all the day and thought from where on earth, I am going to bring that content.

After a lot of thinking, I thought, why don't I tell the world what I think. Earlier I was afraid because when I start revealing things, then I wouldn't stop. Its like only the truth, nothing more than that and nothing less than that. I don't want anyone to know about my true identity. Coming from such a respectable society, its not that difficult to find me. So I have to be very careful while writing things here.

I am an introvert, few say, not everyone. Let's shed this image. I am putting my best efforts here to become an extrovert. I always maintain a diary, which only I can read, because no one knows about it. I don't share my secrets, my feelings, my thoughts with someone else even in my dreams.

Earlier I wanted no one to know about me, but now I want everyone to know about me. I earned nothing while living so secretly. But now I hope to earn something by living so openly. That's when I decided to write a blog, its one of the best way to communicate with interested strangers. Here at least people will get to know that such a person exist and I would love to read their comments. I just want to know what others think about me.

I can write in normal English, unfortunately I can't write like other English authors. I don't have a such a rich vocabulary. I never felt the need of it. But now after so many years I can feel the thirst, the hunger for more words. Maybe I am going through the third phase of my life, where things are falling back to normal and I am out of my past and living a new life today.

I never do things for a reason, sometimes I have to set myself in the search mode, where I make some wild searches within me. There are times when I find multiple reasons and find it difficult to choose, which one is the main reason behind it. Hope at least now , you all understand what my problem is. If yes, then please tell me. Since this is my first post, I feel I should stop here, otherwise my next 20 posts you will find in this one post.